I grew a breast when I was fourteen

I grew a breast when I was (0.00 / 0)
around 14 years old, a pretty lil "B" cup after it was full grown. I didn't like it and then again, I did like it but some people gave me a hard time over it. I, for the most part, I ignored it as though it was "the way nature grew me", and by the time I got out of the military, I began to really enjoy having it once I was free from parents and "authority" so I could dress female at will. But it added to the confusion and the misunderstanding of my identity, of who I was.
Finally, when I got sober and was in rehab I decided to have it removed because I wanted to stop all my "bad habits", and I did, except I learned that dressing as a female was more a part of who I was inside than it was on the outside, i.e. my breast and hairless chest. The removal of my breast tissue did not do what the scripture helped me to do, have my breast made normal for a male. I continued to be me, a person who identified as female and I continued to dress as a female even though I cursed myself and hated myself for doing such things after which I felt I failed as a male by doing so. I always was compelled to dress and be female. So if I had had some therapy and knowledge, (the internet has been a miracle for helping me with knowledge and understanding of my personality), I probably would not have had my breast removed and now would have two breast in equal size, now, a tragedy, since my left breast won't grow because of scar tissue.
But I do believe the scripture has meaning but the proper understanding must be applied to a person, not the body, and not just to appease society, of which I was a victim. I will have my body altered to fit who I have always identified as, female, for I know that that is the person that God made when he made me, that person inside. That which is flesh is flesh and that which is spirit is spirit and the two are completely different entities.
I will have my body altered to female which is no less than other physical corrections performed by the medical profession for the congurence and comfort of human beings. That is the purpose of the medical profession, to relieve discomfort to human beings and in following the scripture that says "physician, heal thyself", I will do just that if the Lord should will. It is only that I could not be honest with myself and others in my understanding when I was presenting as male on the outside, when in fact I began living a double life, at preteen in secrecy and once grown, I pursued it all the more and found my man, with whom I retained a relationship for 30 years. I continued to be fearful of my image should anyone find out and remained in the prison of the closet only until four years ago.